You broke my heart
told me you wanted to be friends
you tell me youd never abandon me
i believed you
i told you my deepest secrets
i trusted you
you break my heart again
you treat me like shit
you abandoned me

am i not good enough?
am i just some fucking warn out thing?
what the fuck is so wrong with me that im not even good enough for you to give the time of day to?
Ive cried over you
am crying over you
will cry over you
am dying over you
killing myself over you

today i felt so special..
today i was so happy..
today i was glowing
i rented some movies and got popcorn and candy
i tried to make myself look happy for you
i did my hair my makeup. i waited
and waited
and waited
and you never called
never showed up
never texted

i grew hurt and angry
i cried
i screamed
i felt worthless

then more time went by
i grew scared
sad
afraid
i feared the worse
i felt sick
i become frightened..

then after 6 hours
you text me
telling me you were okay.. just out

out


you were out


while i was worried.
while i feared
while i cried
while i broke

you were

out


you never wanted to be friends did you?
you just wanted me gone
out
just didnt know how...
im NOT like the other girls no..
because unlike them
you stopped loving me
you stopped caring
stopped everything
to you im nothing arent i?

im just one girl
with one little heart
one tiny heart which is broke
one little girl who whole world has been turned upside down

you know
all i wanted was to be friends..
i loved you
and sadly
unfortunately for me
i still do
because even though i want to just be able to just stop like you did
i cant..
even after ive been beaten down and broken
i still care for you
i still just want to pick up the phone and call you
to hear your voice
i just wish you wanted to
but instead the only thing you do is let it ring

i love you
but you hate me

and even still my mind keeps making me believe that maybe just maybe youll call me.. youll tell me your sorry for all you did
for making me feel bad
youll say youre sorry and you want to be friends
or that there will be a knock on my door and it will be you..
to apologies..
but i know you wont
you wont call even though i wish you would
you wont drive over here even though again..
i wish you would

you'll just sit there
and let me break
over and over and over agian..

i dont care about your comments
i wont reply